I have a problem with binge drinking and not knowing when to stop. . I end up embarrassing myself, or falling over and don’t remember the end of the night.
It’s so disgraceful. My husband is angry at me. And every time we go to a party, or get together, I give myself a massive self talk about taking it slowly or drinking lots of water. But I then get carried away.
I’m always the fun one, and I’m sure my family and friends I always think of me as the drunk one. But the guilt and shame I feel the next day, especially when my husband stops talking to me, is awful .
I know I have a problem, and desperately need help. It’s usually wine that’s the issue.
I still want to be able to have a drink, but once I hit the happy phase, I just keep going, cause I think I’m ok. Then it just hits me, and bang I’m blind.
I can avoid alcohol during the week, but Friday and Saturday, I’m on the wine .
This is not healthy physically and mentally and for my marriage.
Do I speak to my doctor? I’m so ashamed.
I tell myself to be the driver, bit then tell myself I can control it.
Socially all our friends are drinkers.
I’m going camping this coming weekend with 3 other families, and I’m scared of myself.
I say to myself just have a few beers (I just get as drunk), but then the girls get out the wine, and I’m so easily swayed.
I’m so angry at myself. I always fail.
Thanks for listening