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Thu May 13, 2021 10:00 pm
The weekend used to spark a deep fear in me. When I was in active addiction it was because I never knew what would happen, who I would upset along the way, whether I'd be jnured and that horrible feeling of waking up thinkg "What the hell happened last night?" followed by the slow and painful memories as it all came flooding back............or worse..............the slow bleed during the week as more and more details emerged as I caught up with people and I'd cringe on the inside while pretending I didn't care on the outside.
Then the weekend sparked fear because I didn't know what I was going to do without my addictions. The fear of realising I didn't know how to live without them.
Over time that has all got better and I can happily live without my addictions. I can also happily live in the unknown. I don't know what's going to happen this weekend..............but I'm okay with that because I know no matter what happens, I don't have to give in to my addictions.
What scares you about the weekend...........or better still............what are you looking forward to this weekend?
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