My Cocaine enemy

[Bettertinesplease]

I need someone or people to help me stop taking cocaine after almost 20 years. It has made me completely out of control and has resulted in a sex addiction and other risky behaviors.

My use has come back to haunt me and is making my life so difficult it’s almost beyond me coping. I am a great father but it’s started to impact my ability to be a great dad.

I am sober for 8 days and I hate myself

[Hummingbird]

Hi there Bettertimesplease,

Thanks for sharing your story on the forum! It takes a lot of courage to face our issues and admit that we need help.
I can see that you really want to make change in your drug use. And at the same time you are feeling guilty of not being able to be the best for your family.

We are here for you if you need supports or someone to talk to!

[Bamboo [facilitator]]

Hi [mention]Bettertinesplease[/mention] welcome to forum and thank you for reaching out, it sounds like you're going through a really tough time.

That is a huge step going 8 days sober! I'm wondering if you have spoken to your GP or looked into detox or rehab facilities for some support?

How are you going today?

[Lady Bug]

Yes welcome [mention]Bettertinesplease[/mention] !

It's really great you found these forums and are reaching out for help. It sounds like you may need some more professional help to kick this addiction. Have you looked into possibly rehab? You can always call the the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline on 1800 250 015 to have a chat about what’s been going on, but also to be linked in with professional help.

Is there anyone else struggling with cocaine addiction on the forums? If so, would you mind sharing how you are going with quitting?

Lady Bug

[Bettertinesplease]

Hey thanks for the response. Yeah I’m seeing a professional each week and still sober

I’m dealing with a number of very complicated parental things on top of quitting so it’s just really hard

[Carnelian]

Hi [mention]Bettertinesplease[/mention]

Thanks for sharing your experience with us

It must be really difficult quitting and at the same time dealing with other personal things. But it looks you are doing a great job! Well done on having a professional help and being sober.

Do you have any strategies to share with people who are going through similar experience?

Does anyone like to share some strategies on how to deal with quitting and at the same time also deal with complicated personal things?

[Leonarda]

Hey [mention]Bettertinesplease[/mention] - just checking in to see how you are going? It looks like you have a bit of support on this forum which is great to see Sometimes being able to get extra support and not feeling like you're alone in this is a great way to move forward and work with some strategies to get you through the harder times...

[Deep blue]

Hi All
I've had issues with cocaine off an and on for 20 years....
I live alone.....and onec I start drinking it turns the on button and I can't turn it off.
I will watch porn for hours and hours and hours....on my own.
I hate it. I feel ashamed.

[Firehorse]

Hi Deepblue,
Welcome to the forum,
It's really great you have reached out.
Thank you for sharing your story and struggles with alcohol, cocaine and sex addiction today .
I hear its really difficult for you right now
The of drinking alcohol is also having an affect and impact on you being able to set limits and control.
I hear that you have been struggling with cocaine use for over 20 years.
i hear that you are feeling a lot of shame and self loathing right now .

[Deep blue]

Thank you

[HelpfulBee]

Hi [mention]Deep blue[/mention],
Thank you for sharing your story, and for expressing your feelings to us. It must be hard to sit with these feelings.
How are you going with all of this - What sort of self-care strategies do you use when these thoughts and feelings come up? Do you have any helpful tools in your toolbox?
- HelpfulBee

[ScorpionPW]

Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us @Bettertinesplease and @Deep blue.

I remember those early days of facing the weight of the consequences of my addiction with the buffer gone because I was clean. I certainly couldn't get through that time alone...

It sounds like some difficult demons that are being faced here.

I'm wondering how things are now and if you have managed to get any more help with what you're going through?

[PnorkelPW]

Drugs and alcohol end up costing me a phenomenal amount of money. What I spent over the years could have bought me cars, houses, boats, holidays. Our bodies have an amazing ability to adapt but unfortunately that means that over time we need more and more drugs and alcohol to have the same effect…………and eventually it doesn’t have the effect we hope for, it just costs more money.

A lot of times over the years I tried to stop drinking or using one drug or another. I’d never stop all of them though and when I started drinking I’d want to take one of the drugs I enjoyed and then the next and then the next. When I wasn’t drinking I’d want to take drugs. I’d get in cycles too where I’d use one thing to feel better from the hangover or come down from the other. Each one fed the other. Eventually the only way for me to have any control was to not drink or drug at all and that took me years to not only understand, but to be able to manage. It hasn’t been easy but life is better these days.