, welcome to the forums! Thank you for your post.
I love your avatar image - very warm
I can definitely understand that that's a really difficult situation to be in, well done for reaching out.
Looking forward to this community growing and for you to meet more parents who understand where you are and to share support.
Looking after yourself is really important, and sometimes something that doesn't come as a priority when concerned about others. Are there some things that you do to try to look after yourself sometimes? How are you feeling this week?