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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 8:37 pm

    Hello All..

    Haven't been on here for a while.. but I am pleased to say I have been clean, off meth for 418 days now... yes it was 12 months in Aug... it still seems like it was yesterday...

    The struggle is still there.
    I still think about it every day.
    I'm scared I'll get to a really low point and relapse..

    But I know I can do this. 418 really hard days.. just seeing the number of days increase every morning is what is keeping me going...
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    Lady Bug
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 8:41 pm

    [mention]apples123[/mention]

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    That is incredible !
    You are stronger that you think.
    What were some things that helped you to stay clean for 418 days? Do you mind sharing?

    Lady Bug
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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 8:51 pm

    Thank you...

    Things that helped me was just watching the number on the sober app I have on my phone; increase everyday has helped me. I know that may seem small, but 1 day at a time.

    Meditation and finding myself again.. lots of self care and self love.. knowing its ok for me to take time for me and say no to others without feeling guilty..

    Its hard but worth it.

    I do miss it - honestly I do.. but I know I'm better without it.
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    Lady Bug
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 9:09 pm

    That's awesome [mention]apples123[/mention]
    Which app is that you use?

    You may find you will miss it for a long time, and its okay to miss it.... But its about staying strong and true to yourself.
    You are such a valuable member to have on these forums [mention]apples123[/mention], because people aspire to be where you are. You have overcome so much hardships to get here. Thanks for coming on here and being so open <3
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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 9:30 pm

    Thank you for your kind words.

    I don't feel like an inspiration but I guess if I can help just one person, that does make me happy.

    I use an app called sober from Google play store. There are lots of different apps but this one was free, no ads and gives me a quote every morning.
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    Lady Bug
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 9:36 pm

    That's right, even reaching one person and helping them find the motivation and strength to change their lives is an achievement, and one you should feel proud of.
    Amazing thanks for the tip! I presume its also for all substances, drugs and alcohol which is very helpful for people.

    Lady Bug
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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 05, 2020 9:59 pm

    Yes the app could be used for cutting out sugar - anything really. Just watching the days increase and achieving the 1 month, 2 month, 3 month mark etc is really satisfying..
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    forest
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Wed Oct 07, 2020 11:07 am

    Hey [mention]apples123[/mention] ,

    Firstly congratulations on your recovery streak, it must be very rewarding to watch the numbers go up on the app! A bit like striking through days on a calendar but more convenient!

    Just wondering if you have any other tips you'd like to share?

    Take care and remember to do something nice for yourself today :)
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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Wed Oct 07, 2020 6:40 pm

    Hi [mention]forest[/mention]

    Thanks for your message.

    I did see a counsellor every fortnight and talked through things that were linked to my addiction, that is vital.

    Having another focus or challenge is also a good distraction like studying something you love - im learning all about essential oils and the benefits they have.
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    AnnAnn
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Mon Oct 12, 2020 6:28 pm

    Hi [mention]apples123[/mention] , congratulation on your outstanding achievements, the satisfaction of watching the numbers go up must be fulfilling, knowing that you are winning against the 'devil' inside! Thank you for your suggestion of the Sober app as well, I'm sure other members will find this app useful for them and their recovery journey. Can you share with us your self-care strategies during your recovery? You're definitely becoming an inspiration for many others in the community. Keep us updated!

    Congrats!
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    forest
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Wed Oct 14, 2020 11:32 am

    Hey again [mention]apples123[/mention]

    You're definitely right about the benefits of speaking with a counsellor who is able to help you talk about different aspects of addiction. It's so great to hear that this has been a helpful strategy for you - hopefully it encourages other forum members to seek counselling of their own (if they feel they need it).

    I hope you're having a good week so far and that you're putting your essential oil knowledge to good use!

    Hopefully hear from you again soon :)
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    HelpfulBee
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Thu Nov 26, 2020 6:10 pm

    Hi [mention]apples123[/mention] ,

    It's been a little while since we've heard from you, how have you been going?

    Are you still find the app useful, or have you found some other helpful strategies you'd like to share?

    Looking forward to hearing from you soon! :)

    - HelpfulBee
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    apples123
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Wed Feb 24, 2021 5:52 pm

    (Trigger Warning)

    Hello again..

    It has been a while since my last post... however I am still proud to report that it's 560 days since I stopped using meth.

    I saw the following story/poem on fb today and wanted to share it - it so true. I can't share it on my fb as some fb friends aren't aware of my addiction, but I will share it with my kids and close friends. It's the truth and I will still say that I miss meth, alot. It gave me that rush. I loved it.. I can't say if I'll ever do it again (I hope not) but I now know the impact.
    My kids were taken away from me. I'm still trying 560 days later to get them back 50% of the time. I owe my parents so much money for getting me out of debt, and the come down and weight loss was horrible.
    I am now at back to 70kgs which for me is over my usual weight but im healthy. (I could exercise more but that's another story). I'm healthy(ish) and happier than before. So here is the post I copied from fb.

    “I remember before I tried meth, I asked people what it was like. They said “it’s like a burst of energy, a rush that takes your breath, it’s the best feeling ever, I don’t know how to explain it really.’ And they were right, but now if someone were to ever ask me what it’s like, I would tell them..

    ‘It’s like spending every single penny you ever had, on drugs.

    It’s like going days without eating even though you were starving, but you needed dope more.

    It’s like having to lie to every family and friend you had ever had.

    It’s like waking up hating yourself from the shame and guilt.

    It’s like going into withdrawals every 8 hours unless you had more dope to do. (And you usually didn’t)

    It’s like never attending any family event because you were too high or too sick.

    It’s like everyone eventually stopped inviting you to events. And even talking to you.

    It's like crying yourself to sleep every single night because your children got taken.

    It’s like knowing you have one more chance to get better before your child gets adopted and still choosing that bag.

    It's like asking others how your own blood child is doing.

    It's watching everyone around you succeed and yet you’re crumbling.

    It’s like everything was on your drug dealers time. If they said five hours. You’ll wait five hours in a car.

    It’s like stealing everything worth value for dope. No matter how sentimental it was to you, or someone else.

    It’s like losing so much weight you can’t fit into any of your clothes.

    It’s like losing everything you’ve ever owned in your entire life.

    It’s like nobody believing a word you said, even if it was the truth.

    It’s like being a prisoner inside your own head.

    It’s like contemplating suicide every single day.

    It’s like never being scared to die, because that’s what you wanted.

    It’s like trying to shut your brain up for even five minutes. It was worth that little time of peace.

    It’s like seeing your family cry for you to stop, only for you to leave and go get high. Because stopping wasn’t an option. It wasn’t possible.

    It’s like you’d do absolutely anything for more. And you did.

    It’s like everyone hating you no matter where you went, because they knew you were a drug addict.

    You'll miss out on your children and they'll be grown before you Know it. You'd kill for your child and do any and everything for them yet you won't be able to get clean for them and we actually turn out to be the ones who hurt them the most.

    It’s like overdosing and going to get high right after.

    It’s like walking into rehab 100 pounds with the clothes on your back and being scared to death.

    It’s like giving your ENTIRE LIFE AWAY.

    So if you’re ever curious like I was, please at least know the truth. CURIOSITY KILLED THE CAT, and it WILL KILL YOU TOO”
    -Monica Horn

    Thanks everyone

    Chat soon.

    Apples.
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    Leonarda
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Wed Feb 24, 2021 6:39 pm

    This is really powerful @apples123 and it's a beautiful poem that captures the pain of addiction really well. It would be good to hear from other members and see how they can relate and what stands out for them either as someone that has gone through the same or similar or has a family member or friend. Well done for the 560 days and still going @apples123 :)
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    Bamboo [facilitator]
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    Re: To the loved ones of an addict - From an Addict

    Thu Feb 25, 2021 1:20 pm

    Hi @apples123 congratulations for being 560 days since you stopped meth, that's a huge achievement well done! :D Good to hear from you again.

    Thank you for sharing that poem and what you would say to someone now about meth. I just wanted to let you know I've added a Trigger Warning to the top of your post as it does touch on some very sensitive areas and to give other members a heads up.

    I'm wondering what tips or advice you might have for someone that is about to start their recovery journey from meth? What helped you get through your toughest days particularly at the start?
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